Happy.

Right now, in this moment, I am sitting at my desk.

My desk is conveniently placed next to a window, and as I look out at the Autumnal trees, the blue skies ahead, I’m listening to Waking Up – Explosions In The Sky. I can see shadows, birds flying, and leaves, all glistening in a way that reflects the changing patterns in the music. The music fills my lungs, empties my mind and I’m calm and collected. I’m inspired and aspiring for the future, but I’m spending my time being present.

That’s the beautiful truth of happiness. Living in the moment can change your energy levels, and your focus. I am no expert at living in the moment, but I’m trying to improve this skill of true happiness every day, so should you; don’t spend your limited time worrying. Where you’ll be in 2 years doesn’t matter right now, what matters is who you surround yourself with and making sure that what you do fill your days with, are things you’re passionate about. You are the power to your desires.

“If you don’t like who you are and where you are, don’t worry about it because you’re not stuck either with who you are or where you are. You can grow. You can change. You can be more than you are.” – Zig Ziglar

My name is Paige Bolland, and I’m 19 years old. After leaving home at the age of 18, and moving across the world, I now live in the city of London, in the United Kingdom (amongst 8.63 million other people). I was born in New Zealand, raised in a small coastal town surrounded by the same 3,200 folk for 18 years. The sounds of waves crashing, the unique harmonies of New Zealand and coastal birds, my attempts at deciphering my family’s footsteps throughout the house, and the familiar scenery, are all things that are a by-product of my true home; a small hint of these are enough to involuntary envelop myself in contentment. So how do I be happy when I’m 18,773 km away from all of these things?

I live in the moment. I do what makes me happy.

There are days I worry about how many years it will be until I can see my Dads smile, banter with my brothers, and hug my Mum and inhale her perfume. There are days I question my values and my beliefs. There are nights I fear of not doing the right thing, or working towards the wrong goal. In these moments, I’m slowly becoming stronger to bring myself back. That day of reuniting with my family and home will come when it comes; my life will unroll day by day; I truly believe everything happens for a reason and will work out. I should never question my beliefs because they’re mine and they belong to nobody else.  If you are passionate right now, and are experiencing everything you want to experience, that motivation and devotion will be a magnet for good things. I talk to my family everyday, I surround myself with people who make me laugh, and I spend my days aspiring to improve myself in the present day. It’s the days that I truly appreciate the present, that are the happiest. Music makes me happy. Writing makes me happy.

Right now, in this moment, I am happy.

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